Facebook or Fakebook???

When I scroll down my timeline on Facebook at all the posts I’ve made it’s typically the same stuff…”mama brag” posts, pictures, sharing recipes, love for my soccer team, fundraisers, etc. Looking at my timeline anyone would probably think my life is great and I got it all together. They might think I am happy all the time and nothing bad ever happens to me. They might even think that I’m always super positive and always in a super good mood.

Well I guess that’s because I choose to use my social media for all the good stuff in life. I want to give off positive vibes and use it for good. I want to use it to encourage others or bless others or just to share the good things going on in my world. But let me be quick to tell you not to let my social media deceive you. I got stuff…I got problems…I have bad days…I get angry…I get sad….some days I don’t even wanna get out of bed.

This past week was a rough one for me. My dad hasn’t been feeling great lately and I feel so guilty because my life is so insanely busy I can’t even get to town to see him. It’s honestly out of my control because of my work and my responsibilities to my family. It makes me so sad because I love my parents so very much and even though I only live 35 minutes away from them it is very difficult for me to get there during this time of the year. I’ve also had one of those weeks where I just miss Bailee and Josh so much. Our time differences and schedules make it difficult for us to talk much during the week…if a day goes by that I haven’t gotten to have much of a conversation with her I just miss her. I’ve carried so much anxiety with me this past week to the point of a couple of breakdowns. I try so hard to be organized with all I have to do between work, coaching and family…criticism towards my efforts caused me to lose my cool a couple of times this week and that’s not who I want to be…but I’m not perfect. I have so much to accomplish in the next two weeks for my job that I almost lose my breath when I think about it.

I’m telling ya I got stuff. We all got stuff. That’s why it’s so important to take this social media stuff with a grain of salt…and limit the time you spend on it. Instead, talk to your friends and check on them. Don’t assume because their “posts” are happy that they are ok. Chances are they aren’t. Chances are they need a hug, a shoulder to cry on or a prayer or two. I really like to be one of those folks who keeps it all to myself and put on a front that it’s all good. Well I’m exposing myself here. I’m being real, raw and vulnerable. I’m letting you know that what you see on my timeline really is me, but it’s only one small part of me. I got baggage too and sometimes it’s ok just to put it out there and vent.

I will say this…I am so grateful that I serve a mighty God who is there for me during the valleys and the mountain tops. When I can’t take another step He picks me up and carries me. I don’t know how people go through life challenges without Him. He is my rock on which I stand and without Him I am nothing! Tomorrow is a new day and the beginning of a new week! I will rejoice and be glad in it. So, I will carry on with my Facebook as usual…mama bragging posts, sharing cute videos and recipes and all the other good stuff in life. Just know it’s all really me…just maybe not all of me…